Archive for the ‘Synchronicity’ Category

My life, exactly as it should be

March 7, 2012

That is the meditation that I have been using to think about my life. The last two weeks have been difficult, because due to reasons I can’t get into here I have not been able to see my boyfriend. And I miss him sooooo very much, he has my heart. But I’m trying to keep a positive face on things, especially since today I should be hearing whether or not the commission will go through that could mean I could go from being in relative poverty to relative affluence.

Well I really got some good news today about the commission piece that I’ve been to be doing on my new series. YEAH!!!!!!!! I’m so sick of being poor, I can’t even begin to tell you – and I eat more than twice what my 6 foot six boyfriend eats! I’m wearing raggedy clothes with stains and tears, I’m behind and getting late charges on payments, I need to do in our catalog for the auction in May and I have no money for it. There’s an old song that goes to the tune of “romance without finances a nuisance” with a due sense phonetically sounding like noo sanse. Believe me, I’ve been there and I know all about it. I definitely know hard times, though at least I have a roof over my head and I know that relatively speaking I’m rich compared to a lot of people on this planet. But I do live month-to-month with no backup or savings… But that’s going to change! Again YEAH!!

I’ve been working on a new piece but it looks like I’m going to have to abandon it to work on another commission. Oh well, I need the bucks. You gotta to which you gotta do.

Now for a little light entertainment:

I just wish I weren’t missing my man so much… (sigh).

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WOW I just had a really powerful out of body experience

February 20, 2012

I just enough the phone with Ann Angel who wrote a biography on Janis Joplin about a very powerful out of body experience that I just had

http://www.amazon.com/Janis-Joplin-Rise-Up-Singing/dp/0810983494

(this is an amazing book by the way – I highly recommend it).

My first lightbox piece in my new “rock series” was Janis, the next one is to be Jimi Hendrix. Jimi came up on random on my stereo which contains over 700 CDs. I started dancing while closing my eyes and grabbing the handle of my flat file. I had a very powerful feeling of “being” Janis. I became Janis – my body was inhabited by her, I felt like a puppet; I felt like I no longer existed except as a vehicle, much as in the movie Being John Malkovich. And then through Janis Jimi  stepped in – so it’s both Janis and Jimi at the same time. I then saw psychedelia, which I get a lot because of the synesthesia, but it was more powerful; like first thing in the morning when it’s very powerful as I wake up.

Ann thought I should write about this and told me that Jimi also had synesthesia. All I can say is wow. And I got to tell you all of you readers who wish you had synesthesia, it’s a mixed bag. Sometimes it’s fun but it can also be extremely annoying. Kind of like being addicted to making art, which I have BIG time.

Well things are getting easier, now that I’m using dictation software. It’s not foolproof by any means, so if you catch grammar or spelling mistakes you know why. but it sure saves the rotator cuff tear.

I miss my man, I did not get to see him this weekend. I won’t get to see him again until next weekend probably. I miss and I love him SO MUCH! He’s the sweetest nicest guy you could ever hope to meet. I feel like the luckiest woman ever to exist, even though I do have chronic pain. It takes one special kind of guy not to run as fast as he can in the opposite direction once he finds out about my health problems. And of course, he looks like Ryan Gosling– which doesn’t hurt a thing! He’s also very smart and witty and has a great sense of humor. Of course though, he’s dirt poor  – as Cindy says, “we know how to pick ’em.”

Well I’m going to and here with the music video – make that two music videos, one from a group called Muse that I really love and of course, you have to post a Jimi Hendrix video as well.

Wow Eno just came up on random. Been there done that – an amazing song. Without music I could not make my art!

Enjoy! Well Muse won’t come up – probably copyright infringement – but at least you can see Jimi…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pgum6OT_VH8

Muse, and now Jimi…

Hey Joe…

Man-o-Man…

February 9, 2012

Somehow I never thought I’d have a new relationship. Deep in my heart, since my diagnosis in ’07, I thought I’d die a spinster. And now this guy is soooo into me and voisa versa as Bugs would say, my head is spinning. He’s almost too good to be true. He’s everything a woman wants – so far, in our honeymoon period. Caring, considerate, thoughtful, holds my hand in public, everything the last guy was not. I guess I’ve changed, and brought this person into my life who does not fit my old pattern of finding emotionally unavailable men. It may be a cliche, but that’s what I’ve been with in the past.

Okay, now it’s officially been 4 1/2 months since I met Bill and things are still amazing. He treats me like gold, and he is the spitting image of Ryan Gosling. I have so much going on in my life it’s a really crazy. I’m officially doing commission work for a large worldwide chain/corporation, they liked my lightbox that I sent them so it looks like my life is irreversibly changed now in terms of the art that I produce for perhaps quite a long time. I’m using dictation software, by the way, so if the grammar or spelling aren’t perfect you know why.

I stopped by my mechanics on the way home and told a tranny there (she hangs out there a lot) about my new guy looking like Ryan and she couldn’t believe it, she’d seen him at a local restaurant this morning with his dad. this kind of serendipity happens to me on a daily basis. Last night when I was thinking about the musician that I did my most recent art on a song I had never heard before came on on random on my stereo, which consists of two Sony holders that can hold 400 discs each. They are connected together and I have over 700 CDs in there. The chances that she would come up right as I was thinking about her are astronomical. And it happened again this morning as well. And then I tell this woman the Ryan Gosling thing and sure enough, she just saw him at 10:45 this morning. I’m also collaborating with a guy named Marc, he is this amazing experimental filmmaker. I want to help him out as well as myself. A fellow friend, David Coons of Artscans, called him “a god.” He’s that good.

So life couldn’t get any more exciting, or could it? Guess we’ll have to see.,,

Okay, now for something fun.

And finally, a poem:

And allAround the night

It swung, the fiery star

And held upon the corpse of day

And swung

Art, physics, and synchronicity…

May 27, 2011

I think I’d like to post something I have on my website already but would like to re-post for those who may not have seen it.

On Synchronicity, Carl Jung, and the power of your mind.

My friend Cynthia Paige Aaron (a friend and exceptional assemblage artist) came over last Saturday, January 6th ‘07. I was extremely tired, but needed good company as I was feeling rather low that day. I knew seeing her would cheer me up!

As it turns out, not only did it cheer me up, it restored my faith as concerns my health. Let me explain…

We were discussing Carl Jung. A book he wrote in 1962 – Memories, Dreams, Reflections – had been sitting facing her on her bedroom shelf unnoticed for over a year. She woke up and was startled she hadn’t seemed to ‘notice’ it before. I had finished reading his work “The Undiscovered Self”, written in 1957 – the book might as well have been written yesterday. I’ve vowed to re-read that book every year for the rest of my days.

I digress. Cindy and I ate lunch, and started discussing photography – she rec’d a camera from her husband for Xmas – and we discovered we both were doing the same thing, creating wild ‘light shows’ with a longer exposure at night. I showed her some of my best ones, right when Keith Ullrich, the artist who recommended me to Chouinard’s Dialogue group, called.

I explained to Keith all these intriguing coincidences…

1. The group rec’d an email from Vivian Flynn saying her and her husband acquired two new members of their family (cats), named Man Ray and Penumbra. I had, just the day before, submitted a poem titled “Penumbra” to the website “Right Hand Pointing”. I discovered this site because I googled my name and “art”; it turns out “Melissa Lambert” is featured on their main page. Note: Cindy also has a cat named Man Ray.

2. After discussing the photography, I went to my ‘art-bookshelf’ to retrieve the book I learned the exposure technique from. I know that shelf like the back of my hand, all the titles and where. “What the heck is this?” I exclaimed, while pulling out a skinny book I completely forgotten I owned – an exhibition book on Man Ray from LACMA, 1966.

3. During the phone call w/ Keith he stopped talking. I was very concerned for his health, as his voice sounded distorted and weak. He finally explained that a loud ‘report’ had happened, an ‘unbelievably loud’ noise when a green onion split in half in his kitchen! I had just finished telling Cindy about Carl’s infamous “loud report” in his argument with Freud. I have taken the liberty to copy the following text from dhushara’s website:

http://www.dhushara.com/book/jung/jung2.htm

“It is interesting to note that Jung had experience of certain ‘phenomena’ even in the presence of the arch-sceptic Freud, and that they presaged the break in his relation with Freud. He describes how, in 1909, he and Freud argued about psychical phenomena, and Freud’s shallow positivism annoyed Jung. He writes: “While Freud was going on this way, I had a curious sensation. It was as if my diaphragm were made of iron and were becoming red-hot, a glowing vault. And at that moment there was such a loud report in the bookcase, which stood right next to us, that we both started up in alarm, fearing that the thing was going to topple over on us. I said to Freud: ‘There, that is an example of a so-called catalytic exteriorisation phenomenon.’ ‘Oh come, he exclaimed, ‘that is sheer bosh.’ ‘It is not , I replied. ‘You are mistaken, Herr Professor. And to prove my point, I now predict that in a moment there will be another loud report!’ Sure enough, no sooner had I said the words than the same detonation went off in the bookcase. To this day I do not know what gave me this certainty. But I knew beyond all doubt that the report would come again . . .” (Wilson C 478).

“Consider synchronistic phenomena, premonitions, and dreams that come true. I recall one time during the Second World War when I was returning home from Bollingen. I had a book with me, but could not read, for the moment the train started to move I was overpowered by the image of someone drowning. This was a memory of an accident that had happened while I was on military service. During the entire journey I could not rid myself of it. It struck me as uncanny, and I thought, What has happened? Can there have been an accident?” I got out at- Erlenbach and walked home, still troubled by this memory. My second daughter’s children were in the garden. The family was living with us, having returned to Switzerland from Paris because of the war. The children stood looking rather upset, and when I asked, ” Why, what is the matter?” they told me that Adrian, then the youngest of the boys, had fallen into the water in the boathouse. It is quite deep there, and since he could not really swim he had almost drowned. His older brother had fished him out. This had taken place at exactly the time I had been assailed by that memory in the train. The unconscious had given me a hint.” (Jung C 1963 333)”

4. Cindy just emailed and reminded me the following: She had two dreams the previous night that involved stone walls. Later, reading the Jung book, she came across the passage about his experience of building a small city of stone after his wife died. Then later, Cindy noticed the stone wall in my “public works” photo (unfortunately it’s a pic not shown on my website, though I may post it later).

This topic absolutely fascinates me. Lately I’ve been concerned about a health problem. After all these coincidences happened, I had a sudden strong intuition that the universe was telling me “not to worry”. When I told Cindy this, she hugged me and said “of course! You’ll be around a long time, you have too much to give!”

From Wikipedia:

The idea of synchronicity is that the conceptual relationship of minds, defined by the relationship between ideas, is intricately structured in its own logical way and gives rise to relationships which have nothing to do with causal relationships in which a cause precedes an effect. Instead, causal relationships are understood as simultaneous–that is, the cause and effect occur at the same time. Synchronous events reveal an underlying pattern, a conceptual framework which encompasses, but is larger than, any of the systems which display the synchronicity.


More old VOX posts

September 18, 2010

It will be fun catching up on “who I was…” This is the last of the old VOX blogs.

Some music to entertain while reading…

Oh my gooberness…

  • Sep 16, 2008

Just read this from one of the many political emails I get in my inbox every morning: A must read!

http://www.organicconsumers.org/articles/article_14507.cfm

Spent the day yesterday starting on taxes, going to doctor offices, etc. It’s amazing how BAD some medical staff are at following basic English instructions. Even hospitals/private practices with sterling reputations are at serious risk for hiring people who have not one iota of “uncommon” sense. Even Cedars Sinai screwed up and almost killed Dennis Quaid’s twins!

I just finished watching “Sicko” by Moore. It’s glib and full of hyperbole, glosses over facts, etc. Although having said that it’s still worth watching, as the overall point of the movie, about fear-mongering and societal control methods used in the US, has a nugget of profound truth. More soon…

Methodically careless,
What is sure
A road, a measure lift of unending, alleviate the eye and brow
Pain

Memory fallen, lips as teeth as
feet as volition simultaneous picture-artisty-image
Unfolding shard past of scrubbed knee
Fingernail of gravity’s reliance
A fat sparrow digs feathers through a window
ten o’clock tea and counting drunk, is the mirrorless
Critique, as pages stack
As dreams flicker
Endlessly mind
Loping, like a lazy horse

  • Aug 21, 2008

It turns out Rhizome is not the venue for me (yet). So I’m not in their database (oh well).

Soon hope to hear from Shaurya Kumar at Ohio State University regarding whether my art arrived safely! Bruce had wrapped it up so tight if they use a knife that cuts more than 1/4 inch deep it could damage the delicate paper. Hope to hear by Wednesday of this week (September 9th is the opening!)

I’ve been evicted from my building – the whole building has. So I have boxes piled up outside my apartment and am concerned about getting the full relocation fee and 1 year notice (I’m permanently disabled and there’s a new law stating that by law I am owed these things). Applying for SSDI, battling parking tickets, and dealing with the housing department have all taken my time. Plus ongoing tax prep. Why I haven’t been doing too much on this blog…

Today I’m meeting With a guy who works for Coagula and Artscene. It should be interesting, I hope it goes well. We’re meeting at his studio at the Brewery where Llyn Foulkes takes residence. I hope to run into Llyn, that would be fun.

Anyway I better get running (ready) for today.

Below: a view from my front window (now covered with tin foil, as my white-trash ass is trying to save money on electricity bills…)

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WHAT A WEEKEND!!!

Saturday: A friend of a friend got me “in” at this historically most significant Los Angeles landmark. It was so amazing and fun – most people “assumed” I was an artist and asked what type of work I do.

Cindy came to pick me up. We worked on one of her images for the website and ate grilled “cheese” (rice cheese) sandwiches: rye bread, thick organic tomatoes, and any kind of nut butter grilled in a combination of coconut and olive oils. Next time I’ll add swiss chard, I think it will make these sandwiches even more incredible tasting than they already are.

We planned on walking in my great little Studio City neighborhood, but there was no time. So we went over the hill (Laurel Canyon) to Melrose where Gemini G.E.L. is. I’d been given a ‘private tour’ there before by Jim Reid, who is the manager and also one of their nine artists working for (see artist list below), amongst many others. I knew Jim from “the corner”, where I vigiled with NPJ (Neighbors for Peace and Justice, San Fernando Valley) for five years. I also was a core member of the group until I just couldn’t do it any more (many reasons). Although I no longer actively participate, I’m still a ‘core member’ to those who know me best there. Although it’s been years, Jim remembered me and gave me a warm greeting/hug when I walked in.

It was the first party I’ve ever been to where it felt like I had a “back stage pass.” Everyone was so relaxed and happy, all enjoying seeing the artworks up close and hearing about how they were produced. Xavier Fumat had a small group he was talking to right as we came in, it felt like a docent tour. I quickly indicated to Cindy that we should listen in and follow Xavier to hear what he said. He described in great detail how he produced works for Richard Serra. For the main piece upstairs he told how Richard sent two curves, approximately three feet in length; and how Gemini was then instructed to re-produce this much larger, with the exact same curve in painstaking accuracy.
(tired now, story to be continued tomorrow!)

I will update this soon, I have friends Sheri & Donna coming by.Look for update later today. They had a photographic memorial to Robert Rauschenberg in the front of the gallery.

New Editions By:
John Baldessari, Jonathan Borofsky, Cecily Brown, John Chamberlain, Ellsworth Kelly, Ann Hamilton, Elizabeth Murray, Bruce Nauman, and Richard Serra.

Recent Editions By:
Daniel Buren, Vija Celmins, Robert Gober, David Hockney, Jasper Johns, Roy Lichtenstein, Brice Marden, Robert Rauschenberg, Susan Rothenberg, and Ed Ruscha.

From GG’s website:

Founded in 1966, Gemini G.E.L. is an artists‘ workshop and publisher of limited edition prints and sculptures. At Gemini, the artists do all of the drawing or carving directly onto the printing elements. The edition is hand-printed by Gemini‘s master printers, and each print is signed and numbered by the artist as well as embossed with the Gemini ‘chop‘.

In 1981, the National Gallery of Art, Washington, D.C., established the Gemini G.E.L. Archive, which functions as a study center for scholars and collectors, and contains a complete history of the workshop. Included is one example from each of the over 2,000 editions published. Three major exhibitions with works from the archive have been organized and exhibited by the National Gallery in the past 21 years. They recently created a complete online Gemini Catalogue Raisonné at http://www.nga.gov/gemini

Gemini has collaborated with more than 60 highly accomplished artists in lithography, etching, screenprinting, woodcut and a variety of sculptural materials.

That was a bit of a lie. I just now made some (to me) major changes to it (July 11). So it’s been more like a month since I started.

I’m losing the one thing I loved about my place (apartment)…the light. The intense heat of the valley has forced me into putting aluminum foil on my east and west facing windows. Of course now my apartment looks very trashy, and I’ve lost my light to put makeup on. The southern windows are filled with green leaves so I’ll leave those blinds open to get the maximum light, but it’s still very dark and foreboding in here.

What money does in terms of lack of it in terms of coping methods…

I ran into Cary Elwes over at Cinema Secrets yesterday. My favorite all-time actor. He was very gracious. I was bold enough to give him my card, but whether he’ll actually like or see the art is of course highly dubious. I keep getting complaints that its’ too dark. Well, it’s high-maintenance art that requires the right lighting, that’s all I have to say. I’m not going to change it because it might not be as popular as the jazz stuff!!!!! We all have to follow our own muses.

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  • Jul 4, 2008
First off, I promised to insert these pictures of my incredibly messy apartment last post. Finally getting around to it…

I must say things are better now. I’ve managed to clear all of the clutter off the kitchen table, making it suitable for eating (again). Then again it may well go back to being this bad soon.I’ve learned to take this in stride. Many people have mentioned that this is part of my “artistic” personality, and don’t judge me for it. So why should I?My kitties certainly don’t!

Hope everyone is having a safe and happy 4th.

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  • Jun 28, 2008

No, I don’t mean the STD variety. I mean a certain individual who’s initials are VD (supposedly in Iraq, of all places) who tried to get me involved in some sort of gem-smuggling scam (maybe money laundering as well) as well as get one of my limited edition pieces. I ended up shredding both of the $2,500-over-my-asking-price checks she overnighted. I’ve saved all the evidence – it got to be so weird – many names involved, many people calling me, things just got weirder and weirder. No one can say my life is dull!

I guess what I’ve gotten out of this is I try to give people the benefit of the doubt, and I just kept smelling fish, so I hung in there and sure enough, it was a scam. I’m now in the process of setting up paypal on everything, so if anyone wants to purchase they just do it through paypal, and that’s that! The life of the “online artist”…sure I’m not the only one. Then, of course, there’s the ongoing struggle of the “orphan acts” which means pretty much anyone could download and use your work with no penalty (i.e. steal). My policy has always been pretty liberal – I know people can download my image if they want. But I was really surprised to learn from a certain person in the art world I deal with that he himself “steals” works from well-known artists and doesn’t care if they don’t have a signature or are “originals” or “limited edition prints”. “I have the work, don’t I?” he said. WOW. To make it worse, he himself is an artist.

I had a fun day yesterday, talking with a fellow artist who gave me a book on using alternative archival materials in the printing process. He saw my extremely messy apartment and pronounced “you really ARE just like me!” I know it’s worse than usual now, but I’ve been so busy with other things (more important!) Here’s the pics to prove it…(coming up shortly!)

Some people pet, I wet…

It was 100 degrees in my apartment last night, even with the a/c on 24/7. Driving to a teeth-cleaning appt. in Encino last night, my car temp registered a whopping 118 degrees. The wind was horrible, and when I arrived home after the short walk from the car (and from the dentist office) I felt like my skin had 3rd degree burns (of course it didn’t, but touching my arm, my skin was extremely hot!)

I’m glad my 21-year-old is still eating, I worry about her in this heat. I was supposed to visit my parents today but called it off. Just going to stay home and do small projects around the house instead. Too hot to do ANYTHING much! I might call off a visit to Long Beach tomorrow to visit the ex and his wife if this heat continues.

It’s so weird. It feels like the Apocalypse or something (I’m not religious, but this  global warming  extreme weather stuff is just so bizarre).  CNN is practically the “extreme-weather” channel  these days. Flipping through cable channels, it seems at least a fourth of them are devoted to stories about extreme weather. Earthquakes, floods, hurricanes, tornadoes, tropical cyclones, heatwaves, you-name-it it’s happening!

On another note, I just called Karl Johnson after sending his wife info on the Los Angeles County Arts Commission. Seems he has the sculpture garden on Radford at the CBS studios project wrapped up, however the big fourth of July unveiling is slightly altered. Instead of all of the sculptures being unveiled to the public, six sculptures will be situated in the VIP room (the head of the studios has conferred with the Studio City chamber of commerce and came up with this compromise, as they are busy filming on soundstage 10 where the sculptures were to be placed). What a coup for Karl! Now if he could just get the LACAC involved (they don’t have any opportunities posted now, but Karl needs a lot of prep – such as a website – first anyhow).

I found out about LACAC while researching Lola Scarpitta’s artist parents. Salvatore Scarpitta did the same thing my great-grandfather did, sculpture and bas-relief on the outside of buildings. Please read the wikipedia on Salvatore (I wish it would get into more detail). Info about Leo Castelli is very interesting too.

I should call Diana Zlotnick back today, and my friend fussboots. Are you reading this fussy?

The apartment I’m losing (whole building getting evicted).

  • Jun 18, 2008

What an insane day today!

First off, got a frantic call from a neighbor. Seems I hadn’t yet seen the EVICTION notice on my door. She got one with my name, and I got hers.

It seems the landlord wishes to avoid paying the correct amount in my case for the relocation fee, and also to evict me in six months as they are everyone else (my understanding is they need to give me a year’s notice).

Been spending the entire day calling lawyers, etc. trying to deal with this. Trust me…they won’t mess with me!

Then I get a call from Rex Bruce at LACDA, asking if I wish to be in his most recent show. Details follow:

Jurors:

Howard Fox
Curator of Contemporary Art, L.A. County Museum of Art (LACMA)

Rex Bruce
Director, Los Angeles Center for Digital Art

Enter our juried competition for digital art, digital photography, video and new media. All styles of artwork and photography where digital processes of any kind were integral to their creation are acceptable. We accept digital art stills of any kind, digital photogaphy, short experimental time based video, video loops, mobile media, interactive media, internet art (net.art) and new media works of any kind.

The competition is international, open to all geographic locations.

Video, interactive and new media are accepted by DVD/CD. Internet art (net.art) entries are viewed at their original URL. Still image entries are acceped by jpeg upload. Still image winners are printed by the gallery (up to 24″x36″) for exhibition to eliminate the need for shipping, especially for international artists.

The selected winners will be exhibited as the central focus of the DigitalArt.LA expo (see below) in a large group exhibit at the LACDA gallery. The show will be widely promoted and will include a reception for the artists. Juror Howard Fox, Curator of Contemporary Art, LACMA, will attend the opening reception. The DigitalArt.LA expo runs August 14-16 (concurrent with and promoted by SIGGRAPH, the Downtown Art Walk and Downtown Film Festival – Los Angeles), the winners exhibit will remain in the gallery August 14-September 6.

DigitalArt.LA (http://DigitalArt.LA) is a multi-site international digital art expo in the Gallery Row area of Downtown Los Angeles organized by Rex Bruce and L.A. Center for Digital Art. The event includes exhibits by area galleries, theatres, and venues near LACDA. Many venues will host screenings and exhibits for major out of area institutions including Centre Pompidou Forum des Images, UCR | California Museum of Photography, Lanzia Center for Contemporary Art (Danzig, Poland), and the Austin Museum of Digital Art. The central exhibit will be the international winners show of juried submissions hosted by LACDA.

This is an extremely rare opportunity to exhibit alongside top institutions
and have your work viewed by a major curator!

Exhibitors and Participants at DigitalArt.LA 2008 include:

• Los Angeles Center for Digital Art – Winners Show
• Centre Georges Pompidou | Forum des Images
• UCR | California Museum of Photography
• Laznia Center for Contemporary Art, Poland
• Howard Fox, Curator of Contemporary Art, LACMA
• Downtown Film Festival – Los Angeles
• SIGGRAPH
• Austin Museum of Digital Art

• Niche.LA Video Art
• Found Gallery L.A.

• Phantom Galleries L.A.
• Bert Green Fine Art
• El Nopal Gallery

• Spring Arts Collective
• Pharmaka Gallery
• Rowan Gallery
• Regent Theatre
• Creative Commons
• Artillery Magazine
• Coagula Art Journal
• It’s Liquid

All entries are given special consideration for exhibiting at LACDA and outside exhibitions where we are featured. Artists participating in our competitions form the pool of artists from which we select the vast majority of those featured at LACDA and are often considered by our associated network of museums, galleries and curators. Proceeds from the competition support these gallery programs and the DigitalArt.LA expo. Juror Rex Bruce has curated and participated in over 50 exhibits since the founding of LACDA in 2004 and is internationally recognized as a leader and expert in the field.

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WOW!!!

All this in one day!

To be continued…

Erin came up today, and we had a wonderful time!

Erin and I, who are both fans of the movie Laurel Canyon, drove down said street, passing the market that was featured in several scenes in the movie. We went for a wonderful repast at Real Food Daily, then came back up Laurel and explored the market. Lots of very unusual items from all around the world, esp. British products. Got some delicious Belgian chocolate, and she got a bottle of their own brand of red wine (cheap, $6.99) for her hubster.

The housing inspector just left. I admit although this building is falling apart, the landlord’s daughter (now in charge of maintenance) is a sweetie. And about to pop with her first child.

Erin (a fan of my art) really likes the following piece:

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  • Jun 16, 2008

Woman, what a week (last week, now). Had a blast Tuesday with a friend (we did a bit on a watercolor together). Actually an old boyfriend. Haven’t had that much fun in years, sad to say…

Had a wonderful day visiting with my family yesterday. Really enjoy seeing my nieces that I hardly ever see (they live in Vista, near San Diego, with my brother). We played with bubbles and rode a tandem bicycle. I really enjoy my younger brother’s new girlfriend. And my 82 year-old mother was so happy to see me “dressed up” (I wore a dress, my my!). The whole Lambert clan rarely gets together. My mom showed me this:

This is Paul Soberanes, my mom’s father. I have artists on both sides of my family. I sure wish I could track down some of his landscapes. And now my nieces want to be artists, like “Aunt Melissa!” (or Auntie-M, which I call myself on occasion…)

I will always treasure the beautiful time we had yesterday. Just hanging out at the house eating food brought in, no restaurant involved. It was perfect.

  • Jun 7, 2008

Apologies to those who actually read my blogs. Lately I’ve been using VOX ony to post artworks that link to main  website.

Wow. Getting increasingly organized and de-cluttered (pruning inbox, filing, etc.) left time to read old posts. Realizing I miss keeping up on my OWN life with dates (I’ll forget if I don’t blog!) Ive decided to spend a few minutes here and there (rotator cuff tear prevents too much typing in any one period) to continue this blog.

I’ve had some rather interesting events happen recently…requests to reprint my art in an Art and Science journal in Basque (I’ll believe it when I see it), a very strange series of emails turning into nothing more than an attempt to involve me in either an outright scam or money-laundering scheme, requests for “studio visits” where the person had no intention of buying but wanted me to “mentor” them, etc.

I honestly think that unless one is a Thomas Kinkead, Murakami or Warhol (Lola tells me he gave limited edition prints a bad name by repeatedly re-issuing “limited editions), selling art and navigating the scene to find the top 1% wealthy (the only ones who will survive this world-wide economic recession/soon depression) is near impossible. Also surprised to find out recently that in order to combat the bad name LE prints have with the knowledgeable art crowd, artists who sell LE prints are turning to putting their thumb prints on the back for verification. The widespread digital age has made the ripping off of visuals/signatures all-too-common (wonder how many people have “stolen” my work?)

Even a framer I know of (who shall forever remain nameless) said he got a print from a famous artist from an employee of a print house (a common practice amongst employees at print houses, he claims). “Was it signed?” I wanted to know. “No, who cares, I have the print! Plus it’s easy to fake a signature” Was his reply. Wow…does no-one care about authenticity anymore? I guess unless you’re a collector who wants to re-sell (usually to make ‘a killing’) down the road, most people don’t care or consider the ethics of owning work they didn’t buy or obtained illegally.

Part of me doesn’t care if people steal my work, thinking of it as flattery. I know during the Napster days a lot of peole were introduced to music they then bought they never would have learned about otherwise. However increasingly as I learn more it does bother me. And now the All-Powerful Google is behind legislation to make it nearly impossible for artists to protect their copyright privileges

Orphan Works Act

A summary from owoh.org:

A radical proposed change to US copyright law would allow infringer’s to exploit the rights of copyright holders with little or no penalty. Two bills currently on the “rocket docket” would let infringer’s “orphan” any copyrighted work whose owner the infringer failed to locate through a vaguely defined “reasonably diligent” search. The creative arts industry, including world-renowned artists, designers, photographers, manufacturers, and licensing businesses have united to oppose this legislation.

Do we have a chance? Methinks naught.

To be continued…

OK – it’s Sunday, my place is finally clean after 2 weeks of dealing with mold and hotels, and I’m relatively caught up with the mundane details of life in Los Angeles/the U.S. So I will do a blog and please certain friends who miss it!!!

My life is slowly returning to normal. I just finished a book about money, & although I’m not willing to recommend it because I think most people will think I’m a lunatic for having read it at all (the book is really about science as it turns out, not money) it has helped me tremendously in examining my attitudes about money and why I have them. I’ve had wonderful discussions with my friends about poverty and how it affects your world-view – and I have to say when I made more money and could indulge in “retail therapy” I led a life much less examined.

John Lennon’s “working class hero” just came on random. I view some of the lyrics as being immature, however his line about the public being “doped on on sex, possessions and TV” (I’m re-writing this slightly for my own bias on the situation) is “right on the money.”

For me personally, the worst thing about living on the edge financially is the stress that it creates (checking account balances every day online, having to put art expenses on credit cards, always sweating the end of the month before the disability check arrives.) Money is a symbol of appreciation, according to the book’s author. Think of bills not in terms of a discreet piece of paper, but rather as a symbol of something you received of benefit for your “expression of appreciation.”

Not making any $$$ at my last art show, and nothing yet in the coffee shop, is disappointing and led to a depression for a day and a half after

I have realized a lot of the reason Mat and I and others (understandably) don’t care for his work has a lot to do with a lack of insight or understanding of Japanese culture. I have now revised my opinion, or at least I am suspending judgment. I don’t personally think of his work as fine art; however I can see how some might, and I will readily concede he is a genius at marketing, the ‘Andy Warhol’ of his time.

  • Nov 2, 2007

I have to say I was completely put off by the Takashi Murakami show at Moca’s Geffen. I need to read more and think before I come down either way on his blatant mean streak or ironic commercialism, but both Jean and myself got stomach-aches and felt (as if) we had spent any $$$ on his ridiculously high commercial (NOT fine) art we would have been playing into  his “evil empire”. To top it off, the dirty pool that downtown LA plays by posting parking signs that are contradictory (I thought I could park from 9-6, only to find I had been towed, thanks to some hidden sign I never saw saying no parking past 4 p.m.). Now I’m going to have to find someone to help me pick up car, towing fee $184, not to count whatever ticket I get.

I’ll respect and listen to whatever anyone has to say about Mr. Murakami, but I just think it’s beyond sick that he very successfully lures small children in his grotesque empire. I’m finding myself agreeing with Matt Gleason of Coagula, which I never expected. More on this later.

Another beautiful morning here, going to be in the high 70’s today. Just wish it would rain. We really need it…air still bad after those worst-ever-in-Los-Angeles-fires.

Looking forward to catching the Takashi Murakami show with Jean today!

So many changes going on…

  • Sep 29, 2007

So many changes going on here in good ol’ LA. First it’s a crazy rain pour about a week ago, then it gets hot again (why didn’t I wear my shorts today?) and now it’s back to being cool & overcast. Time to pull out the recipe books for warming soups. I just found a recipe for tofu ricotta!!! Who knew?

My newest image, just finished:

Untitled4

Been a tough, but enlightening, week. Last Tuesday (Sept. 18th) I tripped over my geriatric cat in the middle of the night. She was underfoot and caught me at such an angle that for some reason I didn’t throw my arms out while falling headlong, the way one normally does. I fell flat on my face, crushing my front left three teeth in.

I’ve been having a terrible time since, taking the dreaded ibuprofin (can anyone say diarrhea?) and in a lot of pain. Eating hurts, talking hurts, I don’t want to do any of my normal activities.

Weird though – when going through the worst times, I always seem to accomplish even more. Been doing taxes, preparing gift packages for loved ones with birthdays, finished a new art piece (above). Reading my beloved Art & Physics, preparing new & delicious vegan recipes, organizing, etc. Have had no time, obviously, for blogging in quite a while. But I decided I just had to get started again…

On that note, I better go exercise and get on with yet another busy day.

TOFU BASIL RICOTTA:

Submitted by Isa prep time: 10 minutes | cooking time: none | makes About 2 cups Use as a filling for stuffed shells, mixed with tomato sauce in pasta or as a topping for pizza. By popular demand I edited this to say that you should press the tofu before preparing. Equipment:
Tireless hands, a bowl

Ingredients
1 pound firm tofu, pressed
2 tsp lemon juice
2 tsp olive oil
1 clove garlic, minced
1/4 tsp salt
1/4 cup nutritional yeast flakes
handful fresh basil leaves, chopped fine (ten leaves or so)
dash fresh black pepper

Directions
In a large bowl, mush the tofu up with your hands, till it’s crumbly.

Add lemon juice, garlic, salt and pepper and basil. Mush with hands again, this time you want it to get very mushy so squeeze through your fingers and mush until it reaches the consistency of ricotta cheese. May take 2-5 minutes.

Add olive oil, stir with fork. Add nutritional yeast and combine all ingredients well. Use a fork now, because the oil will make it sticky. Cover and refrigerate until ready to use.

Crazy Dreams

  • Sep 16, 2007

Both myself and my friend Cindy have been having some beauts lately. Why does it seem that the intense dreams come around the full moon?

I dreamed I was in the middle of an evacuation, by foot, in a barren desert valley between two hills. If you were in a helicopter, I would have been on the outside right of the mob. It seemed that most of us were wearing white Arabic looking costumes.

Helicopters appeared out of nowhere. I noticed them early on, before they were close. I started climbing the very stiff incline up the hill. I noticed a few others doing the same. It was incredibly difficult, as there was no vegetation and the sane was slippery. Somehow, I bravely managed (and woke up with sore arms.)

There were rich peoples houses at the top of the hill. They barricaded themselves “against the world” using plywood barriers. The construction of the barrier was such that there was a space where I could hide from the valley.

I peeked out, and saw that the helicopters were now above everyone, and they were releasing a gas that caused everyone to pass out. Children were crying “P-EU!” so I figured the smell was bad. Pretty soon everyone was passed out, and then parachuted people came down, to do who knows what. At this point I woke up.

Anyone care to analyze?


This Quixotic Life…and how weird it gets

  • Aug 11, 2007

Hi everyone. I go in and out with being good about journaling on this site, mostly because of shoulder problems/typing.

Anyways, my life is soooo weird. I spend too much time at my acupuncturists office, having this Korean (very nice) lady doing things like jumping on the massage table and jamming her foot into my back. sometimes she’s on all fours, jabbing her elbows into my body parts. If anyone could see this, they would surely be shaking their head(s)…

Don’t get me wrong. What she does is great, and necessary, as I’m ever-so-slowly recovering my strength from atrophied muscles due to a rotator cuff tear and being off work for four years. But the absurdity of it all just gets to me sometimes – the lengths I’m forced to go through to try to have a normal existence. Between the chiro, the acupressure, dr. visits due to the recent (gasp!) cancer, and everything else I’ve had to deal with physically, I just find myself swallowed in this very weird world of the convalescing  I find my first impulse is to inject humor into everything, so I joke with all the hospital attendants/physicians/nurses. How else to cope with the situation? How better? My life feels like an absurdest Monty Python episode. My life could honestly fill out a bad b-movie quite nicely.

Well, I’m tired, as I usually am this time of evening. I spend all my sparing energies early in the day. I’m amazed I’m even still up, as the last few days have been a bit too physically involving. I did see an excellent movie with my friend Joseph (also my curator at BAE) today, I can’t remember of the director from Hong Kong but at some point I’ll have to list some of my top movie finds. My dear friend Fussboots has seen/knows of so many wonderful films, I’ll have to get a list of her favs as well to add to the list that I haven’t seen, but know must be fabulous due to her taste.

And now…yet another new show. Info at my website, MelissaAnnLambert.com, if/when you get a chance to check it out!

Hope all is well with all of you sweethearts,
Melissa


Another hot valley day…

  • Jul 30, 2007

It’s another hot one here in the valley. Already steaming, with no breeze whatsoever (I went out to pick up my laundry downstairs.)

Gonna work on a new art project I’ve started today, and organize lots of photos taken in the past. Feels good also to toss all the stuff accumulated from the ex-boyfriend…moving on, as they say.I saw something funny on a commercial between Jon Stewart clips today that made me laugh – this woman’s friends were taking bets behind her back on how long her newest relationship would last. Hilarious and sad at the same time!

Thought I’d show everyone a pic of my apartment taken a while back! Having problems loading, so I’ll get to this after I reb00t the ‘puter…

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The Holographic Brain

  • Jul 29, 2007

Yes, I’m steeping myself in this, because of my image for the new show:
Karl Pribran and Jeffrey Mishlove on “The Holographic Brain”

The Hologram There are lots of other great articles as well!

This morning heading over to the gallery to meet with my Dad and younger bro to see the work (for the first time hanging in the gallery, and get to check out everyone else’s work in the “Art and Science” show, please see my main website “galleries” tab for more info:

MelissaAnnLambert.com

I went to check out MOCA yesterday, renewed my artists discount and met David McDonald, who it turns out also is in the collection of Diana Zlotnick and knows a lot of the same people, including Llyn Foulkes. Joseph De Mario, my curator at BAE (Bakery Art Exhibitions) and I went to check out the Richard Tuttle show. Matthew Monahan’s work was amazing too, I want to go back to have a better look at his stuff (we mostly focused on Tuttle’s work). Thomas Hirschhorn and Roxy Paine also had an amazing piece, a statement on post 911 American life. Although the Tuttle show ends tomorrow 7/30/7, I urge anyone who can make it to go!

Now onto making myself an amazing Sunday breakfast – using lentils, tofu, rice, vegan cheese, and english muffins. Have to leave at noon to have my family gallery visit!!!

TTFN,
Melissa

Holograms and Brain theory – fascinating!!!

  • Jul 24, 2007

I’ve been having so much fun researching holonomic brain theory – reading about Karl Pribram, Fourier transformations, the uncertainly principle, Plank’s constraint, etc. Reading this stuff, rather than art history, which I desperately need to do, because of my new piece over at the 2nd City Gallery in Long Beach (starts this Saturday, see blog below for more info.)

What I basically get from all this reading is that the old view of how the brain works is that information is stored in specific locations. Now the theory goes that we’ve learned, and tests have proven (unfortunately on cats and monkeys, whom I feel extremely sorry for) that the brain functions as a dissipative structure, whose lens (consciousness) focuses. In other words, what quantum physics shows about the uncertainty principle and how the brain functions is  essentially the same, the brain being a tool to “decrease this uncertainty in the direction of its theoretical limit” (quote from Jeff Prideaux, who wrote “Comparison between Karl Pribram‘s ‘Holographic Brain Theory’ and more conventional models of neuronal computation”.

Ok, enough of that stuff. Today the weather is very unusual for July in the Valley – rather cool! Woke up feeling great this morning, slowly but surely getting out from under the spell of the ex-boyfriend. Dressing up in a cute summer dress for the Vegan Toastmasters on Saturday was definitely the lift I needed – my friend Pam and I both dressed similarly, and funny enough, she noticed men checking me out but not her and I noticed the reverse (it always works that way, doesn’t it? My Dad says men are very “sneaky” in how they check out women…) Not that I’m concerned about dating anytime again soon. I’m beginning to think internet dating sites are just plain evil. Meeting someone the old fashioned way has merit…

Well gotta go to prepare a lunch for myself. Ciao all!

Next gallery show coming Saturday…

  • Jul 23, 2007

Here’s the info (sorry this isn’t as personal as usual…soon!)

Hi everyone!

I’m pleased to announce my third gallery/alternative space exhibit this year! With two more to come, look for upcoming info as we get closer to the dates…

I realize Long Beach might be a stretch for some of you in terms of miles driven, but I would be most pleased to see you at the reception for all those who can make it. As many of you know, this is a great opportunity, because art and science are my two favorite subjects!

Please scrolll down both for the image (42 inches square) and my Artist Statement regarding the piece.

Hope this finds you healthy and happy,

2nd City Council Art Gallery + Performance Space

435 Alamitos Avenue

Long Beach, CA 90802

(562) 901-0997

2ndcitycouncil@earthlink.net

www.2ndcitycouncil.org

Wednesday – Sunday, Noon – 5 p.m.


ART & SCIENCE

Juried by Corby Waste, senior artist @ JPL

Exhibition runs July 28 – Sept. 6, 2007

Free Artists’ Reception

Saturday, August 4, 2007, 7 – 9 p.m.

Performance by Marc Nimoy, Laptop Rockstar

Arty Science Bar where you can perform experiments

Artists

Brian S. Asdell, Debra S. Babylon, Lee Balan, Teresa Blatt, Winifred Johnson Brewer, Carl Burmeister, John Chwekun,

Bill Collins, Linda Frost, Nuvia Crisol Guerra, Tim Harlan, Frank W. Higley, Judy Hiramoto, Jim Hornung, Karl William Johnson,

Michael Krapes, Melissa Lambert, Benjamin James Powell Lavender, Stacie B. London, Ken Marsh, Lisa Medlen, William A. Tuggle,

David Eli Vaughn & Glenn Waggner.

STATEMENT

“My brain, which resembles a Jellyfish, is situated in the night sky. My eyes spew DNA like code into a spiral galaxy. A butterfly floats serenely toward “The Hologram.”

We’ve evolved from a worldview containing closed systems and boundaries, reflective of a reductive dualism/linearity and imposing a contiguous range of naturally occurring phenomena. New intersections between art and science manifest as serendipitous resonance between artists and scientists exploring complex systems.

Holonomic brain theory, quantum physics, chaos theory, the butterfly effect, etc. have come to show the implicate order, explaining that space and time are no longer dominant factors in determining relationships. Each element in a hologram contains information about the whole, as the whole contains information about each piece. Our amazing brains are holograms.

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Holograms and Art

Jul 5, 2007

    Hey everyone back again! Up early this morning…got two new gallery shows coming up! I guess I need to “be careful what I ask for”, as shows cost $$$$ and so far, no sales. It seems in the art world, if your not hand picked after getting your MA, you have to build your reputation up gradually, and it’s a long haul. All my other artist friends are doing the exact same thing…and it’s extremely time-consuming.

    I’m reading about holograms now, and about to exercise while reading “The Holographic Brain with Karl Bribram, Ph.D.
    I hope lots of you caught the special on American Musicians yesterday on KCRW, 89.9 FM. It was great – Nina Simone, Fats Waller, etc. They started out with a special on Paul Simon, I guess I’d forgotten how many great things he’s contributed (I don’t care for some of his later stuff, so I for the most part forgot his legacy!)

    Check it out here:

    PAUL SIMON

    Well gotta get to exercising now – back soon!!!
    Melissa


    Boy has my life changed…

    • Jun 27, 2007

    Boy has my life changed lately! Working on a new art piece, finished another and one close to being done…hope to have something new posted soon!

    Getting ready for the day, too much to do…but look for some new stuff and more journaling soon (this time I promise!)

    Have a fun day everyone-
    Melissa

    p.s. – reading The Thich Nhat Hanh Collection – highly recommended.


    Hi everyone – been a while…

    • Jun 5, 2007

    Hi everyone – been a while, for good reasons, trust me! But finally back to making a short post, and hopefully keeping it up on a more consistent basis.

    Newest art project finished (actually an electronic collage of things done previously, over a period of years.)

    It’s been quite the year. At the end of this year I’ll have had my first four gallery shows. My health is slowly returning (grueling amounts of exercise every day.) Tea water is on now, my Kittie just left my lap cold. It’s cold and dark inside, I can hear cars go by infrequently at this hour. Have the stereo on low.

    Well I better get to doing some things around here. Look for more soon…

    On and Off with a Tendency Toward On

    • Apr 10, 2007

    Frida is an inspiration to me – I guess it shows in this self-portrait (showing now at the Armory Center for the Arts, Pasadena!)

    On and Off with a Tendency Toward On

    Please visit www.MelissaAnnLambert.com (click on current/upcoming shows for the details!)
    Untitled

    • Apr 10, 2007

    Although I do traditional media work as well as images that digitally “collage” elements of hand-drawn and photographic work, I’ll follow the group rules and only submit traditional media work!

    Got a gallery show (my first) going on now in Pasadena, plus another show in Long Beach coming at the end of this month. Please check my main website for details!

    www.MelissaAnnLambert.com

    Untitled, graphite (piece in June show at the Jazz Bakery, Culver City)

    Jon Stewart, Stephen Colbert, the “N” word, and the “P” word

    • Apr 9, 2007

    Segment regarding the ‘N’ word

    Let me start by saying that recently, in the past month, both Jon and Stephen have had shows regarding the “N” word, exploring what this word means and why it is controversial at best and detrimental at worst. They would never actually use the word in their programs (they get black people to do that and then bleep the word), yet both of them think nothing of using the “P” word. Which is equally damaging, to women, in my view.

    First – I have a few thoughts that lay down the premise and give a context for my thoughts regarding the “N and P” words. Please read and be patient…

    I have friends all across the political and religious spectrum. I really love talking to those who hold opposing, or at least different, viewpoints – it’ s amazing how after you get to know someone who calls themselves “conservative, liberal, progressive, libertarian, etc.” how often, by carefully explaining your viewpoint and defining terms, you can achieve an understanding – not necessarily an agreement or consensus, but an appreciation of the other person’s perspective and reasoning.

    Although it happens rarely, sometimes they can change your opinion, or you can alter theirs!

    A great example of this has happened with my friend and chiropractor, Dr. J. (He happens to also be the guy who also saved my life, literally.) One day recently we we’re talking about his and my friend Fussboot’s beliefs that most people who call themselves ‘liberal’ or ‘progressive’ go all the way in terms of believing practically anything is allowable under the aegis of ‘free speech’.

    He reminded me that the ACLU defends pornography and NAMBLA, the North American Man Boy Love Association, an organization that purportedly wants to decriminalize sex between men and under-aged boys. (see http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/NAMBLA)

    I have a strong belief that pornography undermines women’s humanity and is damaging in so many ways it would take a book for me to document all that is involved with this belief. I’ll just hit on some highlights:

    Please read this quote excerpted from Bill Moyer’s article titled “Discovering what Democracy Means (February 12, 2007)

    “We know who the enemies of democracy are. In his Jefferson Lecture the late Cleanth Brooks of Yale identified them as the “bastard muses” propaganda, which pleads, sometimes unscrupulously, for a special cause or issue at the expense of the total truth; sentimentality, which works up emotional responses unwarranted by, and in excess of, the occasion; and pornography, which focuses upon one powerful human drive at the expense of the total human personality. To counter the “bastard muses,” Brooks proposed cultivating the “true muses” of the moral imagination. Not only do these arm us to resist the little lies and fantasies of advertising, the official lies of power, and the ghoulish products of nightmarish minds, they open us to the lived experience of others—to the affirmations of a heightened consciousness—to empathy”.

    Empathy toward others is the key. One of my favorite sayings is “It is NOT permissible to yell fire in a crowded theater.” Hmmm…would the ACLU argue in favor of that one?

    My boyfriend says (and I see his point) that the ACLU “mostly” supports good causes. But they undermine their good causes, in my opinion, the same way the ‘nut-cases’ who throw red paint on models wearing fur damage PETA’s name or the people who bomb abortion clinics undermine their legitimate need to express their views.

    Now, back to why words can be so damaging. I have mixed feelings about the ‘N’ word, and since I’m not black, I don’t feel I have a right to comment on something I have no experience with.

    Now the ‘P’ word? Yes, I am a woman. As you’ve probably guessed by now, by ‘P’ I don’t mean pornography – I mean that word that describes a specific portion of a woman’s anatomy.

    Perhaps being similar to the ‘N’ word, I feel it’s OK for a woman to use that word at her discretion (although I don’t, and am against women OR men calling women the “C” word – something someone recently reminded me does occasionally happen, though it’s I’VE personally never known another female who would ‘bow-down’ to language that vulgar).

    HOWEVER…When Jon Stewart and Stephen Colbert (and popular culture, increasingly) use that word to put down other men, it goes beyond calling a man a “woman” to put the man down.

    The implication behind this, which I find mystifying that more people don’t seem to see, is that men are somehow ‘better’ or ‘superior to’ women. The ultimate put down? For a man to imply another man isn’t a real man by comparing him to a woman,in a disparaging way. And…it seems to me the connotation is different than, say, calling a man a d**k. That translates more to “jerk”, whereas the ‘p’ word translates more to weakling, wuss, again – someone who’s not a “real man.”

    I believe pornography enables popular culture to increasingly find it perfectly OK to disparage, demean, and objectify women, allowing such language, and the roots behind these attitudes, to go undetected and under the radar. Much popular hiphop music reflects this.

    It’s time women stopped participating in their own ‘one-down’ position in today’s very unbalanced society.

    I very much enjoy The Daily Show and the Colbert repor(t), but I have to say – please quit contributing, guys, to the subtle, and powerful, forces this patriarchal, chauvinistic society contributes to creating attitudes that women are less than full human beings with equal rights in all areas.

    And women? Remember – we can and often are our own worst enemies.

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    OK – 4 u Mr. P & all you Feline Fiends…

    • Apr 7, 2007


    OK – these are pretty good.

    (click on the images twice to blow up pretty decently large!)

    There’s one of Mr. G drinking from my fountain – isn’t it amazing that cats love drinking water from everything BUT their waterdish? The first one of Goober’s iris right behind the candle wick is pretty freakish, pretty amazing! Two of them have an original watercolor I did in the shot…

    I won’t leave this post up forever, I really want to focus less on the beauteous beasties and more on art, politics, etc. (soon to come – stuff about the ‘P’ word vs. the ‘N’ word, Jon Stewart, Bill Moyers, and Stephen Colbert!)


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    There are many more where these came from…

    • Apr 7, 2007

    Click on these to enlarge. I can’t find the ones of him dangling upsidedown from furniture, but I know I have them somewhere on the old hard-drive.

    Coming soon: a post on the “p” word, with comments regarding Jon Stewart & Steven Colbert. CHECK BACK!!!
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    Goober (male cat) in front of watercolor painting

    • Apr 6, 2007

    The business (time-sucking) side of art!

    • Apr 4, 2007

    Musings & Muses:

    I was speaking to my framer Bruce, a friend, this morning; and heard myself whining about how much work it is to try to make it as an artist – the business side can be such a grind.

    Yesterday morning I invited Karl Johnson, a sculptor friend, over to see the websites I’m listed on (two French websites, 2 U.K. sites, 2 U.S. sites, plus my own; now I’m working on Flikr and VOX). He doesn’t own a computer and was completely resistant to the idea of doing that. Plus, he’s old enough to have missed the “computer generation.”

    In many ways I agree with him, and understand those of my artist friends who seem rather alarmed at the fact that I spend so much time reading books on the business side of art and doing things like posting myself on websites. I see their viewpoints as well.

    I feel very conflicted about the whole self-promotion thing. YES…I need to eat and pay for a roof over my head. And YES…I’ve been on disability with a rotator cuff tear, and then cancer, and am living hand to mouth. AND YES, I would be doing the art whether wealthy or poor, I do it because I’m driven to do it.

    But the whole “putting myself out there” aspect to this, which is necessary in today’s climate where there is so much competition and where money drives everything, feels strange and insincere. The books I read recommend, probably wisely, that you “need to spend 50% of your time doing art and 50% of the time promoting it.”

    AND, I am getting burned out on the latter half.

    Are there any other artists/musicians/writers out there who can give their perspectives on this?

    HELP!!!

    Definition of New Verb: To be “Sparked”

    • Apr 3, 2007

    Spark Me Bay-Bee !!!

    After hanging up with my dear friend Fussboots in Portland last night, I was encouraged that I need to keep up my blog on a more consistent basis! Two-three times a week is the new goal.

    So now onto the art reception/opening March 24th (my very first, as the Newtown/Armory show was my very first gallery experience) and how it went!

    First off, I was much more relaxed then I thought I would be…I expected to be a nervous wreck. But the work I did imagining myself relaxed and enjoying the evening all week seems to have paid off.

    A short list of attendees: My younger bro Jeff and his girlfriend Kim, Steve, Sheri and Donna of course, Cindy, Keith & Kira from my old Chouinard Dialogue class (Kira’s interactive sound piece was amazing), my acupuncturist TJ, his wife and niece, and Carlos from Fine Art Solutions to say the work looked great (he really did an excellent job.) Later Joseph De Mario, the curator at the Jazz Bakery who is giving me a show in late June, graced me with his presence whilst towing friends. Steve & Jocelyn from Neighbors for Peace and Justice were also there. So I felt a lot of support. Quite a few people, especially early on, gave me compliments, which of course I hated

    An odd experience contrasting reactions ranging from people barely glancing at my work while moving swiftly on to those who studied it closely and hung around. At one point I noticed a rather artsy looking fellow, probably my age, examining the work very closely. He was wearing all black with a cap, so I grabbed my camera to take a pic of him scrutinizing my work.

    THIS is when I got, ahem, “Sparked.”

    “You take a picture of ME! I’M the ART!” he cried out, facing me and ruining the shot I had planned on taking.

    “Um, you see, I just wanted to get pictures of people looking at the art for my website,” I stammered. Could you please go back to looking at it?”

    “NO!” He kept insisting, so finally muttering “whatever” under my breath as I took his picture. Boy, was I in for “it” now.

    Spark (not his real name) proceeded to monologue diatribe me, so close to my face I felt puffs of hot air on my cheeks.

    “The only piece even worth looking at more than once is the one on the right! The middle one is bombastic, garish and too in your face, like ‘NOTICE ME!’ and this one (pointing) is far too static and composed for my taste! Your work is not worthy of the moniker art!” As he bellowed I kept inching backward while he inched forward, keeping about two inches from my face, This seemed to go on forever, as he essentially said the same thing over and over and over.

    Finally, looking over his shoulder, I thankfully glimpsed a familiar face, a guy I’ve met previously at Jazz Bakery art openings. He was observing the scene with a Cheshire-worthy grin on his face. I interrupted the tirade saying “you look so familiar! Where do I know you from?”

    If looks could kill. Spark stomped off with balled up fists in a complete huff.

    I have since found out that he did that to everyone that day, saying none of the art – upstairs or down – was any good. The art downstairs was superb. Christine Nguyen’s work recently hung in the Armand Hammer. All of the artist’s works downstairs are incredible. And if I say so myself, is was the art upstairs! I’ve seen quite a few shows where the work is very uneven; here although of course everyone is going to favor some work a bit over others, overall the quality, in my opinion, is surprisingly consistent.

    I learned later (an inside scoop) “Mr. Spark” is a frustrated artist who is having problems getting in local galleries. I’m told his work is good; I just hope a friend of his holds up a mirror and his attitude becomes more accommodating.

    I recently saw “Making it in Manhattan,” an Art City DVD which I highly recommend. One of the critics says “many artists of high caliber go completely unnoticed, many mediocre artists become fairly famous and best-sellers. It’s all about how much time the artist spends in her studio vs. networking.”

    I would like to add to that (not that I have much experience in this arena) attitude and social skills do count, and we all have something unique to offer. As I told a friend recently who seemed a little too impressed about my being in the gallery “hey, we’re ALL the stuff of the stars!” Or as my dad would say, “we all put our pants on one leg at a time”.

    All that said, as I told Fussy, I’ve learned a lesson, though I’m sure there are many more to come. It seems the older we get the more we realize how precious every second is. I will do my best not to get “Sparked” again. My good friend Joel Mark, who is often so wise, said “affirm what you hear him saying, then physically remove yourself.”  I like that.

    Overall? The evening was a success. My favorite part? Meeting Dr. Julie Korenberg and seeing her astounding work showing the living brain “thinking” with the synapses darting around doing their jobs. Really looking forward to talking with her further about her work – she’s been involved in the genome project and worked for years to get the images demonstrated that night (either from the hippocampus or the amygdula, I’ll have to ask as I my temporal lobes were tired when I finally got around to seeing her stuff.)

    Now onto the next project! Blog to be continued soon…

    Synchronicity

    • Apr 3, 2007

    On Synchronicity, Carl Jung, and the power of your mind…

    My friend Cynthia Paige Aaron (a friend and exceptional assemblage artist) came over last Saturday, January 6th ‘07. I was extremely tired, but needed good company as I was feeling rather low that day. I knew seeing her would cheer me up!

    As it turns out, not only did it cheer me up, it restored my faith as concerns my health. Let me explain…

    We were discussing Carl Jung. A book he wrote in 1962 – Memories, Dreams, Reflections – had been sitting facing her on her bedroom shelf unnoticed for over a year. She woke up and was startled she hadn’t seemed to ‘notice’ if before. I had finished reading his work “The Undiscovered Self”, written the year I was born, last year – the book might as well have been written yesterday. I’ve vowed to re-read that book every year for the rest of my days…

    I digress. Cindy and I ate lunch, and started discussing photography – she rec’d a camera from her husband for Xmas – and we discovered we both were doing the same thing, creating wild ‘light shows’ with a longer exposure at night. I showed her some of my best ones, right when Keith Ullrich, the artist who recommended me to Chouinard’s Dialogue group, called.

    I explained to Keith all these weird coincidences…

    1. The group rec’d an email from Vivian Flynn saying her and her husband acquired two new members of their family (I’m assuming cats), named Man Ray and Penumbra (or Penny). I had, just the day before, submitted a poem to the website “Right Hand Pointing”, discovered because I googled my name and “art”, another “Melissa Lambert” is featured on their main page. Cindy also has a cat named Man Ray!

    2. After discussing the photography, I went to my ‘art-bookshelf’ to retrieve the book I learned the exposure technique from. I know that shelf like the back of my hand, all the titles and where. “What the heck is this?” I exclaimed, while pulling out a skinny book I totally forgot I had – an exhibition book on Man Ray from LACMA, 1966.

    3. During the phone call w/ Keith he stopped talking. I was very concerned for his health, as his voice sounded weird. He finally explained that a loud ‘report’ had happened, an ‘unbelievably loud’ noise when a green onion split in half in his kitchen! I had just finished telling Cindy about Carl’s infamous “loud report” in his argument with Freud. I have taken the liberty to copy the following text from the website

    http://www.dhushara.com/book/jung/jung2.htm

    “It is interesting to note that Jung had experience of certain ‘phenomena’ even in the presence of the arch-sceptic Freud, and that they presaged the break in his relation with Freud. He describes how, in 1909, he and Freud argued about psychical phenomena, and Freud’s shallow positivism annoyed Jung. He writes: “While Freud was going on this way, I had a curious sensation. It was as if my diaphragm were made of iron and were becoming red-hot, a glowing vault. And at that moment there was such a loud report in the bookcase, which stood right next to us, that we both started up in alarm, fearing that the thing was going to topple over on us. I said to Freud: ‘There, that is an example of a so-called catalytic exteriorisation phenomenon.’ ‘Oh come,) he exclaimed, ‘that is sheer bosh.’ ‘It is not , I replied. ‘You are mistaken, Herr Professor. And to prove my point, I now predict that in a moment there will be another loud report!’ Sure enough, no sooner had I said the words than the same detonation went off in the bookcase. To this day I do not know what gave me this certainty. But I knew beyond all doubt that the report would come again . . .” (Wilson C 478).

    “Consider synchronistic phenomena, premonitions, and dreams that come true. I recall one time during the Second World War when I was returning home from Bollingen. I had a book with me, but could not read, for the moment the train started to move I was overpowered by the image of someone drowning. This was a memory of an accident that had happened while I was on military service. During the entire journey I could not rid myself of it. It struck me as uncanny, and I thought, What has happened? Can there have been an accident?” I got out at- Erlenbach and walked home, still troubled by this memory. My second daughter’s children were in the garden. The family was living with us, having returned to Switzerland from Paris because of the war. The children stood looking rather upset, and when I asked, ” Why, what is the matter?” they told me that Adrian, then the youngest of the boys, had fallen into the water in the boathouse. It is quite deep there, and since he could not really swim he had almost drowned. His older brother had fished him out. This had taken place at exactly the time I had been assailed by that memory in the train. The unconscious had given me a hint.” (Jung C 1963 333)”

    4. Cindy just emailed and reminded me the following: She had two dreams the previous night that involved stone walls. Later, reading the Jung book, she came across the passage about his experience of building a small city of stone after his wife died. Then later, Cindy noticed the stone wall in my “public works” photo (unfortunately it’s a pic not shown on my website, though I may post it later).

    This topic absolutely fascinates me. Lately I’ve been worried sick that I’m getting NHL (cancer) again, as I’ve been itching on my back, a symptom for the cancer. I’ve been secretly worrying about it, not wanting to face it – after all these coincidences happened, I had a sudden strong intuition that the universe was telling me “not to worry, you’ll be around a long time”. When I told Cindy this, she hugged me and said “of course! You have too much to give!”

    Anyone else have any thoughts or experiences related to Synchronicity, Dreams, Visions, Science, or Mythology?

    Norton Wisdom

    September 17, 2010

    I thought about this song because TJ was just here, and he dreams a lot about whales. He has great dreams, I love them!!! In one dream he was riding the back of a whale. Being from Korea, they share the ocean with Japan, and he’s very angry the Japanese have practically made whales extinct with their love of eating them – so horrible! But onto more pleasant subjects…

    Norton has an upcoming show at the Robert Berman Gallery,
    September 16 – October 9, 2010
    Opening reception:
    Saturday, September 18, 6-9pm
    Performance at 8pm

    Kandinsky of course if my very favorite artist of all time. I need to finish reading his “spirituality in art” book, where I learned he had a very similar synesthesia to the kind I have.

    DY was responding to my dream where a guy walks on water and realizing it he sinks…she responded with this note:

    Holy Bible, Matthew, Chapter 14 (Oxford World’s Classics

    verses 22-31
    And straightway Jesus constrained his disciples to get into a ship, and to go before him unto the other side, while he sent the multitudes away.
    And when he had sent the multitudes away, he went up into a mountain apart to pray:  and when the evening was come, he was there alone.
    But the ship was now in the midst of the sea, tossed with waves: for the wind was contrary.
    And in the fourth watch of the night Jesus went unto them, walking on the sea.
    And when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were troubled, saying, It is a spirit; and they cried out for fear.
    But straightway Jesus spake unto them, saying, Be of good cheer; it is I; be not afraid.
    And Peter answered him and said, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus.
    But when he saw the wind boisterous,he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying, Lord, save me.
    And immediately Jesus stretched forth his hand, and caught him, and said unto him, O thou of little faith, wherefore didst thou doubt?
    —————-

    And so this is what your dream reminded me of….Take care, D.

    Speaking of spirituality, I guess I’ll finally get around to my belief system, which is mostly about eastern philosophy and science, in particular, quantum mechanics. I call myself a pantheist, and this is the definition of pantheism that most closely describes my spirituality:

    (pretty funny, as I’m writing this the following song played on the stereo:)

    A doctrine identifying the Deity with the universe and its phenomena.

    Quantum mechanics and string theory (also holonomic brain theory) in particular inform my belief systems regarding spirituality.

    The holonomic brain theory, originated by psychologist Karl Pribram and initially developed in collaboration with physicist David Bohm, is a model for human cognition that is drastically different from conventionally accepted ideas: Pribram and Bohm posit a model of cognitive function as being guided by a matrix of neurological wave interference patterns situated temporally between holographic Gestalt perception and discrete, affective, quantum vectors derived from reward anticipation potentials.

    Pribram was originally struck by the similarity of the hologram idea and Bohm’s idea of the implicate order in physics, and contacted him for collaboration. In particular, the fact that information about an image point is distributed throughout the hologram, such that each piece of the hologram contains some information about the entire image, seemed suggestive to Pribram about how the brain could encode memories.[1] Pribram was encouraged in this line of speculation by the fact that DeValois and DeValois[2] had found that “the spatial frequency encoding displayed by cells of the visual cortex was best described as a Fourier transform of the input pattern.”[3] This holographic idea led to the coining of the term “holonomic” to describe the idea in wider contexts than just holograms.

    Lens-defined model of brain function

    In this model, each sense functions as a lens, refocusing wave patterns either by perceiving a specific pattern or context as swirls, or by discerning discrete grains or quantum units. David Bohm has said that if you take the lenses away, what you are left with is a hologram.

    According to Pribram and Bohm, “future orientation” is the essence of cognitive function, which they have attempted to define through use of the Fourier theorem and quantum mechanical formulae. According to Pribram, the tuning of wave frequency in cells of the primary visual cortex plays a role in visual imaging, while such tuning in the auditory system has been well established for decades.[citation needed] Pribram and colleagues also assert that similar tuning occurs in the somatosensory cortex.

    Pribram distinguishes between propagative nerve impulses on the one hand, and slow potentials (hyperpolarizations, steep polarizations) that are essentially static. At this temporal interface, he indicates, the wave interferences form holographic patterns.

    Pribram has written, “What the data suggest is that there exists in the cortex, a multidimensional holographic-like process serving as an attractor or set point toward which muscular contractions operate to achieve a specified environmental result. The specification has to be based on prior experience (of the species or the individual) and stored in holographic-like form. Activation of the store involves patterns of muscular contractions (guided by basal ganglia, cerebellar, brain stem and spinal cord) whose sequential operations need only to satisfy the ‘target’ encoded in the image of achievement much as the patterns of sequential operations of heating and cooling must meet the setpoint of the thermostat.”

    Quantum dynamics of free will

    According to this theory, waveforms, within the matrix of a distributed system, allow fluctuations taking place to create new patterns, according to Pribram, and the resulting dynamic potential can then organize new foci of activity oriented to the precipitation of strategic planning and exercise of free will.

    In a 1998 interview[4], Pribram addressed the understanding of cognitive potential, stating that, “(I)f you get into your potential mode, then new things can happen. But usually free will is conceived in terms of how many constraints are operating, and we have in statistics a notion of degrees of freedom. I think our will essentially is constrained, more or less. We have so many degrees of freedom, and the more degrees of freedom we have, the more we feel free, and we have freedom of choice.”

    These so-called “quantum minds” are still debated among scientists and philosophers, and there are actually a number of different theories—not one—that have been suggested. Notable proponents of various quantum mind theories are philosopher David Chalmers and mathematical physicist Roger Penrose. Cosmologist Max Tegmark is a notable opponent of the various quantum mind theories. Tegmark wrote the well-known paper, “Problem with Quantum Mind Theory,” which demonstrates certain problems with Chalmers’ and Penrose’s ideas on the subject.[5]

    Lari Pittman

    September 9, 2010

    Continuing to enjoy his talk – every time I hear it I get some new layer of meaning. He talks about how the discussions of the differences between LA & NY (art world discussions) are “boring.” Boy…I couldn’t agree more, and I’m sure he knows much more about this topic then I do. He said when we went to Cal Arts in the mid 70’s (his type of school, as it wasn’t a “hippy” school – I was never a hippy,” he states) Baldessari told everyone to get a one way ticket to NY. He is glad he didn’t, and now he advices his UCLA students to stay here in LA.

    It’s amazing without ever trying, I wound up in what is considered the preeminent art center in the world (along with Berlin, from what I understand).

    Haven’t been blogging as much because so much time is wrapped up in fixing my outlook calendar program. What a pain in the ass! Reading Alice Miller’s Drama of the Gifted Child. B loved it so much he bought copies for everyone he loves. From what I understand (haven’t read it yet) it explores the premise that child abuse is condoned and ignored in society, creating everything from addiction to war. Looking forward to reading. I’m short on time or I’d discuss my ideas about this in depth (later).

    http://www.pbs.org/art21/artists/pittman/index.html

    Click above to watch an art21 video about Lari.

    (aside: I somehow missed but just noticed that while Lari is talking on the Art City DVD (thank you Chris Mayback, please do another one!) while he’s discussing how he puts body parts missing or decapitation or depicts bodily fluids in his work, you here an ambulance in the background, and when he’s talking about how the best dealers need to “get on a plane and travel,” you here the roar of an overhead plane. Synchronicity, or was that inserted afterward??? Hmmmm….

    Lari Pittman

    Biography « previous artist | next artist »
    Lari Pittman was born in Los Angeles, California in 1952. Pittman received both a BFA (1974) and an MFA (1976) from California Institute of the Arts, Valencia. Inspired by commercial advertising, folk art, and decorative traditions, his meticulously layered paintings transform pattern and signage into luxurious scenes fraught with complexity, difference, and desire. In a manner both visually gripping and psychologically strange, Pittman’s hallucinatory works reference myriad aesthetic styles, from Victorian silhouettes to social realist murals to Mexican retablos. Pittman uses anthropomorphic depictions of furniture, weapons, and animals, loaded with symbolism, to convey themes of romantic love, violence, and mortality. His paintings and drawings are a personal rebellion against rigid, puritanical dichotomies. They demonstrate the complementary nature of beauty and suffering, pain and pleasure, and direct the viewer’s attention to bittersweet experiences and the value of sentimentality in art. Despite subject matter that changes from series to series, Pittman’s deployment of simultaneously occurring narratives and opulent imagery reflects the rich heterogeneity of American society, the artist’s Colombian heritage, and the distorting effects of hyper-capitalism on everyday life. Pittman has received many awards, including a Pacific Design Center Stars of Design Award (2004); the Skowhegan Medal (2002); and three fellowships from the National Endowment for the Arts (1987, 1989, 1993). He has had major exhibitions at the Institute of Contemporary Art, London (1998); Los Angeles County Museum of Art (1996); and Contemporary Arts Museum, Houston (1996). He has participated in the Venice Biennale (2003); Documenta X (1997); and three Whitney Biennials (1993, 1995, 1997). Pittman lives and works in Los Angeles.

    For additional biographic & bibliographic information:
    Barbara Gladstone Gallery, New York |  Regen Projects, Los Angeles
    Lari Pittman on the Art21 blog

    Finally…

    August 12, 2010

    feeling somewhat “normal” after the trial. Back to reading at the lifecycle, did yoga this morning while eating a mix of cranberries, blueberries, and cantaloupe. Now eating oatmeal with goji berries while listening to Morrissey.

    Actually, the entry above is a few days old. I’ve been busy continuing to organize my place, so much so that I felt the need to take a break, and Tuesday I went to LACMA’s “free” day (M drove)- and saw incredible work by Jasper Johns. While viewing this and discussing the work with a young couple who were both graphic and fine artists, we were interrupted by a woman announcing a lecture tour of Baldessari’s work. Since I’ve never really done that I thought I’d give it a whirl, who knows, I might even enjoy it.

    I was by FAR the youngest person there. In the beginning this woman (also elderly) asked “are there any artists here?” I nodded as she went on to add she would ask for my perspective on various aspects of her talk, but when I told her I’m self-taught, she ignored me the rest of the time (no surprise there, ladies and gentleman!) I stayed for about half of it, but I do have to say I have an increased respect for Mr. B, although I do think much of it a bit too conceptual for my personal taste. So mixed feelings overall, I might try & go back one more time.

    Making real progress with hypnotherapy. Had an amazing dream a couple of days ago, B and I agree it’s a very, very breakthrough dream:

    8/10: I was in a spa, I had bought Tazz & Goobs with me. We were in a room, I explored and discovered two fish laying outside a large pond-like aquarium, a red fish and a blue fish. I picked them up and put them  back in the water; the blue one was fine. Someone took out the red one as it appeared still to be dead. “Try again,” I said, this time it was fine, swimming happily.

    Lots happened in between but I realized toward the end of my spa stay I didn’t know which parking lot my car was in. Had Tazz w/ me somehow got home, but needed car to retrieve Goobs. I knew he was fine there and safe but I wanted to make sure he got his breakfast in the exact correct fashion I give it to him at the right time he usually gets fed. Dan Ackroyd was in a lounge area outdoors and he agreed to help me. Where is Tazz? I realized all of a sudden. We walked to Dan’s jeep, she was in the front passenger seat. I picked her up, we were both reassured. I looked at Dan’s very pregnant belly and said “how could you be pregnant?” “Hidden agenda penis,” he said with a sly smile. p.s. Opened up an email from Greg Cohen featuring a Bulgarian artist Lyuben Dimitrov w/ an image containing the exact same red fish right after writing the dream down.

    DREAM ANALYSIS

    Courtesy of B.

    Context: As a child I had a budgie named Mr. Bo Jangles. Ironically never did know if it was a male or a female, it kept changing it’s beak color.

    Anyhow the dream (nightmare, actually) was that I would open a closet door and see the bird in a state of decay (near death) – every night when I had this dream the bird was always without food and water, and each time I had the dream, a little closer to death.

    So as an adult, with a deep healing of inner childhood wounds, feeling more fluid and younger, remembering blocked childhood memories (mostly good but some bad as well) I dream I bring the “dead” fish back to life, putting them in water, which is symbolic for life. I can’t find my car, but unlike myself as a child, I have the ability to figure out how to get help. A very pregnant Dan Ackroyd slyly smiles while telling me he has a “hidden agenda penis.” Part of my childhood was gender confusion, as a tomboy (encouraged by parents) part of me really was in shock when puberty hit and it was obvious I’m female. Anger at being female, inherited from mother. She was also encouraged to be a tomboy due to older brother’s Asperger’s syndrome by grandpa. She also, I’m positive, was accused of being too “emotional and sensitive.” So I did exactly what she did and lived “in my head” (symbolized by little girl in top portion of Continu Espace-temps. Back to the dream: I had a fear of men’s sexuality, a fear of being cheated on and/or getting a disease. In the dream, Dan symbolically brings the female quality of empathy, of giving life, of being “there for me.” I think Dan is the perfect man my brain picked to symbolize this quality. Aaaahhh, the sly smile on his face while saying “hidden agenda penis.”

    Great Grandpa. His sculpture that was in Chicago’s World Fair 1893 below:

    Baldessari

    July 18, 2010

    J drove D, his new girlfriend and I to see Baldessari at LACMA yesterday – a huge retrospective. I’d like to read more about the work, which at first glimpse seems pseudo intellectual to me – a little too conceptual, but I’m open to changing my mind when I learn more about him. DNJ was on the way home, had an early opening, so we went there and the photograms were excellent. So wiped out when done however. Really did a number on my lower back. Just got a book called “Spychips – How major corporations and government plan to track your every purchase and watch your every move” by Katherine Albrecht and Liz McIntyre, and got off the phone with C talking about the movie Zeitgeist and The Matrix and discussing “how to get off the grid.” Every single day I have to remove a bunch of malware from my computer, which I do b/4 looking at financial information. Probably collecting some now from this site. They’re already doing it with our computers, just a matter of time b/4 there are chips in our drivers licenses, sneakers, and prescription meds. And now the City is charging low income people on lifeline existence xtra money ’cause the city is broke. So poor people are getting it stuck to them while the wizards who run the show (reference to the Wizard of Oz) just get fatter and fatter and have more and more control over us. I felt like watching Zeitgeist again but I know it will just make my blood boil. So I’m watching Vincent and Theo and enjoying it very much. Much better than a French film I viewed before.

    Auuughhh!!! I guess it’s time for a new image and a tune. (see above).

    The new piece is finally done. Click on image to enlarge and magnify.

    Continu Espace-temps, 2010

    Synchronicity…

    July 7, 2010

    On my website under musings, but just in case you haven’t seen it! A tune to listen to if you prefer while reading…

    On Synchronicity, Carl Jung, and the power of your mind.

    My friend Cynthia Paige Aaron (a friend and exceptional assemblage artist) came over last Saturday, January 6th ‘07. I was extremely tired, but needed good company as I was feeling rather low that day. I knew seeing her would cheer me up!

    As it turns out, not only did it cheer me up, it restored my faith as concerns my health. Let me explain…

    We were discussing Carl Jung. A book he wrote in 1962 – Memories, Dreams, Reflections – had been sitting facing her on her bedroom shelf unnoticed for over a year. She woke up and was startled she hadn’t seemed to ‘notice’ it before. I had finished reading his work “The Undiscovered Self”, written in 1957 – the book might as well have been written yesterday. I’ve vowed to re-read that book every year for the rest of my days.

    I digress. Cindy and I ate lunch, and started discussing photography – she rec’d a camera from her husband for Xmas – and we discovered we both were doing the same thing, creating wild ‘light shows’ with a longer exposure at night. I showed her some of my best ones, right when Keith Ullrich, the artist who recommended me to Chouinard’s Dialogue group, called.

    I explained to Keith all these intriguing coincidences…

    1. The group rec’d an email from Vivian Flynn saying her and her husband acquired two new members of their family (cats), named Man Ray and Penumbra. I had, just the day before, submitted a poem titled “Penumbra” to the website “Right Hand Pointing”. I discovered this site because I googled my name and “art”; it turns out “Melissa Lambert” is featured on their main page. Note: Cindy also has a cat named Man Ray.

    2. After discussing the photography, I went to my ‘art-bookshelf’ to retrieve the book I learned the exposure technique from. I know that shelf like the back of my hand, all the titles and where. “What the heck is this?” I exclaimed, while pulling out a skinny book I completely forgotten I owned – an exhibition book on Man Ray from LACMA, 1966.

    3. During the phone call w/ Keith he stopped talking. I was very concerned for his health, as his voice sounded distorted and weak. He finally explained that a loud ‘report’ had happened, an ‘unbelievably loud’ noise when a green onion split in half in his kitchen! I had just finished telling Cindy about Carl’s infamous “loud report” in his argument with Freud. I have taken the liberty to copy the following text from dhushara’s website:

    http://www.dhushara.com/book/jung/jung2.htm

    “It is interesting to note that Jung had experience of certain ‘phenomena’ even in the presence of the arch-sceptic Freud, and that they presaged the break in his relation with Freud. He describes how, in 1909, he and Freud argued about psychical phenomena, and Freud’s shallow positivism annoyed Jung. He writes: “While Freud was going on this way, I had a curious sensation. It was as if my diaphragm were made of iron and were becoming red-hot, a glowing vault. And at that moment there was such a loud report in the bookcase, which stood right next to us, that we both started up in alarm, fearing that the thing was going to topple over on us. I said to Freud: ‘There, that is an example of a so-called catalytic exteriorisation phenomenon.’ ‘Oh come, he exclaimed, ‘that is sheer bosh.’ ‘It is not , I replied. ‘You are mistaken, Herr Professor. And to prove my point, I now predict that in a moment there will be another loud report!’ Sure enough, no sooner had I said the words than the same detonation went off in the bookcase. To this day I do not know what gave me this certainty. But I knew beyond all doubt that the report would come again . . .” (Wilson C 478).

    “Consider synchronistic phenomena, premonitions, and dreams that come true. I recall one time during the Second World War when I was returning home from Bollingen. I had a book with me, but could not read, for the moment the train started to move I was overpowered by the image of someone drowning. This was a memory of an accident that had happened while I was on military service. During the entire journey I could not rid myself of it. It struck me as uncanny, and I thought, What has happened? Can there have been an accident?” I got out at- Erlenbach and walked home, still troubled by this memory. My second daughter’s children were in the garden. The family was living with us, having returned to Switzerland from Paris because of the war. The children stood looking rather upset, and when I asked, ” Why, what is the matter?” they told me that Adrian, then the youngest of the boys, had fallen into the water in the boathouse. It is quite deep there, and since he could not really swim he had almost drowned. His older brother had fished him out. This had taken place at exactly the time I had been assailed by that memory in the train. The unconscious had given me a hint.” (Jung C 1963 333)”

    4. Cindy just emailed and reminded me the following: She had two dreams the previous night that involved stone walls. Later, reading the Jung book, she came across the passage about his experience of building a small city of stone after his wife died. Then later, Cindy noticed the stone wall in my “public works” photo (unfortunately it’s a pic not shown on my website, though I may post it later).

    This topic absolutely fascinates me. Lately I’ve been concerned about a health problem. After all these coincidences happened, I had a sudden strong intuition that the universe was telling me “not to worry”. When I told Cindy this, she hugged me and said “of course! You’ll be around a long time, you have too much to give!”

    From Wikipedia:

    The idea of synchronicity is that the conceptual relationship of minds, defined by the relationship between ideas, is intricately structured in its own logical way and gives rise to relationships which have nothing to do with causal relationships in which a cause precedes an effect. Instead, causal relationships are understood as simultaneous–that is, the cause and effect occur at the same time. Synchronous events reveal an underlying pattern, a conceptual framework which encompasses, but is larger than, any of the systems which display the synchronicity.